That’s all that’s been consuming my life this past week. Since I got my tonsils taken out a two weeks ago, I missed about two weeks of school which means two weeks up makeup homework to do. I’m in two AP classes. One of which my teacher hasn’t been there all week, so I’m even more behind in that class. Then the other is just a killer class, so I’m probably not going to do well in there. Thankfully I’m all caught up in Psychology. French, I’m insanely behind. I have absolutely no idea what’s going on in there. With everything she says I just become more and more lost and confused. In geometry I missed the week she explained proofs, the hardest and most difficult part of geometry. FML. I’m so confused in there. I spent an hour just staring at a worksheet attempting to make any kind of sense of it tonight because I didn’t know what else to do. After that, I just broke down and gave up. I haven’t done any homework tonight, which I know probably isn’t best but I’m so stressed I can’t comprehend anything and everything I try and do is just useless. I regret ever getting my tonsils taken out. This is my junior year. I’m supposed to be having fun. I’m sending in college transcripts with 5 extremely low grades for my first trimester. I know I can send notes and say I was out for two weeks and such, but really what its going to look like is that I wasn’t out of summer mode and didn’t feel like doing any of the work. That’s what it looks like. Not that I was absent and fell behind, not that I tried my hardest to catch up, but that I was lazy. That’s what it looks like.
And my English teacher is an air head. I’m 5 quizzes and a test behind in that class because she hasn’t given me the book with all the study materials yet. On top of that, she hasn’t been at school for the past three days so I still don’t have two books that I need. I haven’t been able to get help with the in class essays, I haven’t been able to make up the first test over the book we read, I haven’t been able to do anything. And she hasn’t left any work for me.
I never thought such a simple surgery would make me fall this far behind. I’m so stressed out I really can’t take it. My teachers seem to think that they’re the only ones that assigned homework in the two weeks that I was gone, but they don’t understand that I have four other classes in which I’m expected to get all this work done on top of the current assignments. I just can’t do this. I feel like quitting. And I know I sound like I coward simply quitting when the times get tough, but I just can’t do this. I don’t know how I’m going to do this. It’s really just not possible for me to do. I stress out so easily so you can just imagine the amount of pressure and stress I’m feeling right now.
I just don’t understand how this is possible.
